I just got my O level certificate yesterday, though I have graduated from my secondary school for exactly a year. Well I saw the testimonial from my teacher and I must say I'm very surprised of what she wrote. She surely had been observing me (everyone in class as well) very carefully. She described me just like the way I'm and I'm very touched by what she wrote. I had never been a significant figure in class, I never spoke much nor been very eagerly in participating any class' activites and for the fact that I had to travel for an hour to school everyday, little did I know that she actually bear this in mind and even wrote it in the testmonial. I guess I'll pay a visit to her sometime when I'm free.

I had a quiz today and argh, I'm so regretted that I didn't study for it! Instead I watched American Next Top Model last night. Sigh. I told myself that I have to work hard for this semester. But history is gonna repeat itself again.. I must cut down the time of playing DA since my account has expired I guess I shall take a break till my vacation.

Its two a.m

Feelin' like I just lost a friend.

Hope you know its not easy.

Easy for me.

Soo, I've told Kyle everything, how I felt for him and etcetc. At first I was sort of regretted that I actually told him the truth but now I actually felt relieved. At least I'm finally convinced of his true self being. Oh well.

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It's a Sunday morning and this is the 4th week since I've asked him for a favor. But well till no avail, I really wish he could speed up and just get done with it. I don't wanna drag it for any further, I'm pretty sure he could do it with a snap of fingers. So what's holding him back?!

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Now about school, these 4weeks have been a fruitful week, as I have been paying attention to lessons except for some lectures.. Oh well! There are quizzes this week and I must really study now! (Hopefully I will with DA running..)

use you I think I made a horrible mistake. Now I feel like digging a deep hole and just hide myself in. I actually told him what I felt a year ago.. Now I ruined everything. Oh jesus, did I make a mistake?

Actually not really, I don't really miss you at the moment as you are on my list of resposibilites and troubles. It's such a tiring day today which I have no idea cause my lessons aren't that much as compared to tomorrow. I'm jusy lying on bed atm listening to Taylor Swift's music. Her music just makes me feel comfortable.

Deju.

Once in a blue moon, I have this weird feeling, they call it 'emo' or having 'period' but yea who cares about the definition anyway. I always know the importance of having this person around but I have no idea why did I let him to make her disappeared in my life. Nothing I can do can resolve this except apologizes, or maybe, disappearing in your life would make you feel better.

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I just want to live a simple life, why do people keep coming in to complicate my life? I wish I've never ever get involved in all these, perhaps my life would be simpler by now. All these mess that people created for me I certainly had enough and it's time to wipe them out. I would be almost completely free once it is done. I have no idea how long it takes, I just wish that it will be soon. I want to tell my manager very much all my thoughts but I know it won't be unfair for him. Oh well..

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Sometimes, when you look carefully back in your life, think about the memories that some of the people created for you. Looking back now, where are they now? Have you completely erased them in your memory or just don't give a damn to them anymore? A simple 'how are you' can very much change a person's day. You can start by scrolling down your contact list, sometimes you will even get a surprise reply or maybe 'im not so fine'. That's what I'm going to reply if you are going to do that!